feeling a bit fed up

i cant belive it, my OH has said that after i have had my operation on tuesday which is also when my 1st af after mc is due he dont wanna ttc because he dont wana c me so heartbroken again. i which case we will neve be able to ttc because it wll always be a risk. i wonder if this is the truth or he has just decided he dosnt want a baby anymore, in which case i just wish he would be honest with me. now i am in two minds if to bother having the laparoscopy and hysteroscopy because if were not planning to have a baby then what is the point in putting mysef thru it!!
sorry for the rant girls, im sure he means well but im just fustrated!!!
hope ur all well xxx