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Getting all worked up.
I can't do it. I have tokophobia (fear of pregnancy) and I have for as long as I remember - pregnant women freak me out - I just don't like it. I never went near pregnant women before - even my two sisters. Didn't like it and couldn't go near them.
finally after being married a couple of years, working with children and having two gorgeous nephews and a niece. The wanting of a baby overtook the fear enough for me to actually get pregnant.
But I have not been able to look at anything to do with giving birth (and have not let anybody touch my tummy - a couple of people have tried to come near but I have backed off and got really cross and it bothered me for ages after even though they didn't actually touch my tummy)
- I tried to have a look at my pregnancy book - but it scared me so much I have a full on panic attack and after crying none stop for two hours my husband found me, and told me off for looking at it as he knows my feelings. I turned to one born every minute by accident - channel flicking. - and I had another full on panic attack - I didn't actually see anything - there was just a lady with her husband in a hospital room. I didn't book the NCT classes and have booked my leavers do from work on the same day as the NHS classes as I couldn't face it and I have just made myself an excuse not to go.
After reading the post of breastfeeding I thought I would have a look at the breastfeeding video - just watched a little bit of it and had another panic attack.
I have tried to write this post a few times but have gone into panic again. Now I know I have to do something about it.
I love my baby already but I can't stop my panic.
I would of talked to my midwife about it but I have never had the same midwife, I have seen 7 of them so far.
I would feel happier if I could have a c-section and when I got pregnant I thought this was possible but now I realise I can't ask for one.
Anyway after trying to be positive- I have been trying really hard to think of all the positives and think if I do all the right things I will have an easy labour and I will be okay, I have been brought back to panic again after the video.
Don't know if anyone will have anything to help - but it's worth a try. Please help if you can.
Thanks
Jo
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Start little, for me it was all about neccesity, I HAD to have injections, so hubby HAD to be there. I told him I wanted to look at him and get him to talk about it but in a casual relaxed way like nothing unusual was happening. It took me around 20mins/1hr to calm down to have tests but it was a start!
Perhaps get your hubby to sit with you and watch a video like breastfeeding together? He can pause and start the video (I can't make my own appointments so my hub has to for me, it helps if there's someone else makes the first step) and if you need to look away you can. Take it slow, and get him to talk you through it.
Don't try anything on your own yet, phobia's are by nature irrational (as in you blow things out of proportion, if any woman isn't a little scared about childbirth then they are a little naive or lying imho!!) so if you have someone rational with you it may help.
Have you told any of this to your GP? They REALLY should get you some kind of counselling, they did for me but I never lived anywhere long enough to follow through and hubby seemed to help more. So much so when I had my flu jab it only took 10 mins!! Good luck hun and keep thinking of the bundle of joy at the end x
Munches mum - it is labour and birth, that really frightens me and I cannot think of it being positive at all. I have 3 outcomes that I keep imagining- no not good ones- I keep dreaming then and imagining them.
Sabbath cat - I thought the anti-natal classes wouldn't be the best place for me to go - but then I was worried I will be missing something that is going to help my baby and I was being really selfish.
I think I will try that with hubby, we were talking about it last night which did help, and I did get rid of the big spider in the bathroom for him (his phobia) I think I would rather do it with the help of hubby then anybody else. I haven't even seen my GP yet as I only registered with the new doctor a few months ago.
Thanks megs - I have thought about it, but I just can't imagine it working, and the thought of having to tell someone makes me feel like an idiot.
Thanks will talk about it with hubby again tonight and I am going to keep up with the pineapple and all the other things that are suppost to help. - It may just help me feel better.
Jo x
big hugs
xx
Er, yes of course you can ask. What's made you think you can't?
In my opinion many people request c-section because they have a fear of the unknown or for what i would call minor non-medical reasons. C-sections cost the NHS a lot of money and can be more risky for mum especially if having 3 or 4 or more children. Doctors and midwifes try to persuade people to try for vaginal deliveries for these reasons. Also the recovery is longer/harder after a c-section.
However, there are some situations which could be an indication for a c-section and extreme fear of child birth is one.
Now, i would still advocate going to counselling however we are rather close to May now so i would ask your midwife for referral to a consultant clinic to discuss your situation and possibly book you for a section then you can always try counselling and the c-section can be cancelled if you decide against it.
Don't stick your head in the sand until you go into labour. Better to discuss an elective section so you know all the ins and outs than end up panicking and having to argue for an emergency section when the contractions have begun.
Just remember however frightened you feel now, one way or another in a couple of months you'll have your baby in your arms.
xxx
http://www.thehypnobirthingcentre.co.uk/
In all seriousness, I don't think there is a right or wrong answer to how you should deal with this. If you are 100% sure you want a C Section I am sure there must be a way that you can get one, whether it is by finding the right midwife who is supportive enough to help you fight for one, or whether it means going private. It is entirely your decision and if it is what you need to do to feel safe and secure then noone should try and tell you otherwise.
However, before you make that decision, please take some time to consider all the positive labour and birth scenarios that could occur for you, and occur for millions of women every day. I was absolutely horrified at the concept of giving birth, I just couldn't imagine that I could do it, I had no belief in myself and was terrified of the pain. I had a pretty tough time of it compared to friends, when delivering DS - my contractions just kind of stopped having an effect at 5cm and they put me on the drip which sped things up and made it pretty intense. BUT, it was no where near anything like as bad or as painful as I had anticipated and worried about for 9 months. With the support of my husband and my midwives, I did it and I am so proud every time I look at my son or see or hear of someone having a baby. I think, "I did that, bloody hell, ME, I did it!" And soon I am going to be doing it all over again, so hey it can't be so bad
What I am trying to say is you and your body are capable of a hell of a lot more than you would ever expect. If you can find the right person to help you deal with your feelings, a supportive midwife or your GP even, I know you would feel a lot better about it all and it will help you explore your options in a more balanced way and with professional advice. It is a huge shame that people only ever seem to talk about difficult or negative labour experiences as I am sure that if more people talked about how well things have gone for them and the positive stories, it would help so many first time mummies who are scared of the unknown.
Lots of love and hugs, keep us posted on how you are getting on xx
I second the hypnotherapist - i have had hypnotherapy for phobias and it worked fantastically - you should start to feel better after just afew sessions.
I'm not sure about hypnobirthing for you - I've done the complete course and I think your phobia might be too deep seated plus the teachers are not hypnotherapists. Don't get me wrong it's fabulous and might be a good thing for you to do alongside some proper hypnotherapy - but the title hypnobirthing is a bit misleadging - its just learning how to go into a deep relaxation and I think you need more specific help than that tbh.
But if you do decide to do some hypnobirthing do go to a group or 1 to 1, i found it so helpful and there was so much more explained than in the book.
R x