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Feeling overwhelmed
Evening ladies just need to offload a bit as the title suggests it feels like everything is getting on top of me at the moment.
I'll start with the breastfeeding issues- when I was pregnant I kept saying that I was going to give it a go but if it didn't work out for whatever reason I wasn't going to be made to feel guilty about it. Well we didn't get off to the best start, it's been so painful and anyone I've asked for help have said it's normal and it'll pass. It got to the point where it was getting too much so we started to mix feed. Today I went to see a breastfeeding councillor who was lovely and sat with me while I tried to feed him and she told me he wasn't opening his mouth wide enough which was causing the pain. I tried to feed him at home twice since then and almost ended up in tears both times because no matter what I did I just couldn't get him to open wide enough. So now I am considering ff completely but feel awful because I know bm is best for him.
Also feel like I need to be doing more in terms of the housework and my uni stuff- I did manage to do a few hundred words on one of my essays yesterday while my mum took LO out for a long walk but most of that time I spent staring into space not having a clue what to write. I think its because DH is back at work I feel that we should be back to some degree of normality.
Suppose the main one is I keep questioning and doubting myself as a mum- I keep worrying that I'm not doing enough with him, haven't got into a routine yet, the fact he feeds every 2 hours day and night despite trying to feed him more during the day, wondering if I'm bathing/ changing him enough, that I pick him up too soon when he cries so making a rod for my own back in getting him to self settle. This is among other things.
I know most of these are perfectly normal worries they're just all a bit too much tonight. I also know i'm expecting a bit much of myself but I keep forgetting it's only been 3 weeks- reckon it feels longer because all the days and nights have blurred into one!
I'll start with the breastfeeding issues- when I was pregnant I kept saying that I was going to give it a go but if it didn't work out for whatever reason I wasn't going to be made to feel guilty about it. Well we didn't get off to the best start, it's been so painful and anyone I've asked for help have said it's normal and it'll pass. It got to the point where it was getting too much so we started to mix feed. Today I went to see a breastfeeding councillor who was lovely and sat with me while I tried to feed him and she told me he wasn't opening his mouth wide enough which was causing the pain. I tried to feed him at home twice since then and almost ended up in tears both times because no matter what I did I just couldn't get him to open wide enough. So now I am considering ff completely but feel awful because I know bm is best for him.
Also feel like I need to be doing more in terms of the housework and my uni stuff- I did manage to do a few hundred words on one of my essays yesterday while my mum took LO out for a long walk but most of that time I spent staring into space not having a clue what to write. I think its because DH is back at work I feel that we should be back to some degree of normality.
Suppose the main one is I keep questioning and doubting myself as a mum- I keep worrying that I'm not doing enough with him, haven't got into a routine yet, the fact he feeds every 2 hours day and night despite trying to feed him more during the day, wondering if I'm bathing/ changing him enough, that I pick him up too soon when he cries so making a rod for my own back in getting him to self settle. This is among other things.
I know most of these are perfectly normal worries they're just all a bit too much tonight. I also know i'm expecting a bit much of myself but I keep forgetting it's only been 3 weeks- reckon it feels longer because all the days and nights have blurred into one!
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The most important thing right now is a happy baby.. An that cant happen without a happy mummy.. So if the bf isnt for you , you must not feel guilty!
My ds, now 3, had two breast feeds, then ff exclusivly.. Healthiest little boy I know! X x x
As far as housework/ Uni work goes, give yourself a break. I congratulate myself if I manage to get up and showered etc before midday! Housework is definitely not a priority just yet. I try to do maybe one job around the house each day but that's it. Are you taking a break from Uni at all? If not it's going to be very hard for you so call on all the support possible but I really wouldn't be trying to do too much at this early stage. I can't imagine having to actually use my brain at the moment!
As far as your hubby going back to work goes, it's bloody hard that first week and so easy to feel low and lonely. There's no way though that you should be expecting "normality" just because he's had to go back. Take time to look after yourself and your little one, try not to do too much and any time you need a little bit of support just log on here. I know I get so much support from the lovely ladies here
xxxx
I totally agree with everything the other ladies have said. My little man was on FF from day 3 as he would not latch on at all and I was stressing about him being ill. When at home I tried and tried at every feed and he completely refused so I was expressing for him and mix feeding as well. Jack decided on day 10 that breast milk was not his thing and refused to take it so I stopped breast feeding. You have done so well to manage 3 weeks so don't feel gulity if you move on to formula feeding.
I think it is only natural when you first give birth to feel that you should be doing everything that you did before, and also care for a newborn who is completely dependant on you 24/7.
In reality you can't do both and at the moment your little one and your sanity are more important than housework. Maybe talk with the Uni and see if you can rearrange some deadlines to make things easier.
It is really hard my little man is the same age as your baby I think (born on 26th) and I agree you feel that you should have a routine in place, but it is early days so don't be hard on yourself. I try and see if we can so something as a family away from the house / grandparents on a Saturday just so we feel normal again - even if its just a walk.
Hope you feel better about things soon and honestly try not to worry about the BF v's FF do what is right for you and your baby.
Dugs and Jack 23days x x x
Am currently on my 3rd consecutive night where dexter doesn't want to settle after his night feeds (love the iPhone sometimes!) already been trying to settle him for an hour part of the reason I don't want to give up bf is he seems to settle so much better from it- he just had a 5oz feed and wanted more so topped him up from my boob and he SEEMS to have nodded off. I did try ebf which was fine when he was only having 2.5oz but it takes me over an hour to express just one feed!
I know I need to relax about the housework and uni stuff it's just difficult I always feel I need to be doing something. Uni have been really supportive and I can get some stuff in late but apparently they don't like it if you hand everything in late because they question whether you can cope and it's unlikely they'd let you continue the year so am really trying to get some done! Think I'll email my tutor.
Spoke to dh and he pretty much echoed what you all said, I am lucky because he has shown himself to be a really good dad so far and has no problem helping me out more if I ask. He's booked a week off at the beginning of december so looking forward to that
Time to see if I can get dexter into his cot without him waking up...
Hope you are having a better day today xx