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Feeling sorry for myself :(
Feeling very low this week as i know i am expecting AF within the next week or so and I am dreading it. I know it is going to be completely heartbreaking yet again, I just dont know if I can handle anymore disappointment. I also have no idea if and when I ovulated.
I have spent a few hours with my niece and nephew whom I love to bits, but I just find it so so hard being around them sometimes as it just reminds me what I havent got and that I want so bad. To my hubby, friends and family I act like normal me, but inside I feel like I'm breaking sometimes.
Sorry for being depressing, but just not feeling very postive and upbeat at the moment and felt I needed to vent a little x
I have spent a few hours with my niece and nephew whom I love to bits, but I just find it so so hard being around them sometimes as it just reminds me what I havent got and that I want so bad. To my hubby, friends and family I act like normal me, but inside I feel like I'm breaking sometimes.
Sorry for being depressing, but just not feeling very postive and upbeat at the moment and felt I needed to vent a little x
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I don't know how long uv been ttc or ur story so forgive me. I was ttc for 2 years before I fell pg and I know I felt devastated and upset for most of those years. However we did get there!
So what I guess I'm trying to say is chin up and try talking to ur Hubby as I did feel better when I started to talk to hubby about how hard I was finding it.
Sorry iv not prob said anything helpful but wanted to give u hope that it can happen even after trying for a long time
Big hugs x x
We've been trying for about 16 months now and it that time i've seen friends and family have babies, but never us. I also find it hard because my hubby already has a son and although I love him and want the best for him, i find it very difficult and am so envious of his and my hubby's relationship and it is effecting my relationship with my stepson. Pathetic i know and i feel awful about it.
I find it really helps speaking to ladies on here and hearing similar stories to mine, i just wish it was as easy to open up to hubby x
Bit rambley. You're not alone.
Kx
TTC month 25
i feel exactly the same at min hun. must be the time of year for us all been so bummed out.
we been ttc for 3 years n 3 months. no bfp. had all fertility work done and just been referred for ivf and waiting for the letter to come through of start date.
i was starting to deal really well with it all then early dec i was struck down with shingles and its effected me quite badly. i'm still really bad and have been left with a really numb leg thats really sensitive. unfortunately the treatment is anti depressants and my gp refuses to give me it because if i did fall preg the drugs could cause serious abnormailities to the foetus! brilliant. so i've started tai chi which is meant to help. i'm taking a homeopathic remedy called Rhus tox which is fine to take apparently.
i'm starting on milk thistle to give my body a full detox ready for ivf. and i'm on vitamins for mother to be. so i'm doing everything right but i'm not dealing with my emotions too well.
i feel like i'm mentally breaking down, its horrible. i feel like everything is closing down on me. i'm hoping its part of this virus i have becuase i was quite strong (mentally) before all this. spend most evenings crying. i feel like an empty shell of who i used to be. my hubby is worried sick. and i just keep thinking is this all worth it???
so i'm just going through the motions and hope when i get to the point of ivf i'll be fine. i have to be. i have about 6 weeks to sort myself out.
sooo your not alone hunny, this is THE HARDEST thing i've ever gone through and i really hope it does work. i certainly won't be putting myself through it again for a second one! sod that!!!
i realise my post is quite depressing too and i apologise that i'm not full of pma on this occasion. i'll hopefully be happier in a week or so. hope you feel better too xxx
Hannahbell, I hope your feeling a little better, I've had friends who have had shingles and it doesnt sound pleasant. Do they think it is stress that has caused it? Hearing what yourself and others are going through really helps and its nice having that support where we can all lean on each other. Did they ever find anything wrong with the tests you have had or are they just classing it as unexplained? I'll keep my fingers crossed that ivf is a success first time round for you and you finally get what you deserve x
I've got a friend that has unfortunately never been able to have children and i feel awful if i talk to her about it because I dont want to bring it all up agin for her, although she says she has now excepted it and does not mind talking about it. I worry that if that was our case - i dont think i would ever be able to except it and move on. I wouldnt know what to do or how to cope.
Hears me rambling on again sorry ladies - just in my own little world while hubby is watching footy.
We've been TTC 18 months and have male factor fertility issues. We've been referred to the NHS for fertility treatment but I've been told today that we won't get our first consultation until June. I'm gutted it seems like so long away, I was hoping by March/April we might have seen someone.
I really hope you get your BFP soon hun, I know how hard it is to keep +ve month after month. I think its such a rollercoaster or emotions, there are days when I feel ok and then there are days when I just don't know how much longer I can keep doing this for. I too also worry that I'll never be a Mum, I think its only natural.
Take Care x
i feel like i'm back on the road to recovery now but know its not gonna be a fast recovery. i'm on a detox too and have MASSIVE headaches but know thats a good thing cos its working. i do however feel a bit more happier in myself which is such a nice feeling to finally have after feeling so low for so long
hope your feeling a bit better talking to everyone else xxx
Hope hubby makes things up to you and you feel better soon x x