now im scared :(
I had my 36wk scan today, had been really looking forward to finding out c-section date, but the same has happened as with my son the measurements have dropped and she has only grown 2cms on head and abdominal in two weeks i dont know how much she should have so im worried, and also my sons growth slowed and i was rushed in at 37wks and after 6 lots of prostin and them attempting to break my waters NOTHING happened so i had a section resulting in a 6lb baby with breathing difficulties and low blood sugars who was kept in scbu, his weight dropped to 5lb, as id had a section i had 2 be escorted to see him and had no support in establishing breastfeeding, i battled on even though theyd insisted he had formular too and struggled to mix feed for 14wks as my supply was very low. Im desperate to breastfeed this baby and just seethe same happening all over except. this time they want me back in two weeks for a re scan and will decide a section date then bcoz they cant guess if the growing has slowed or stopped,
so i have 2weeks of anxiety now and all i can think about is my poorly little boy and how much i dont want to go there again.
On top of telling me all this they take my blood pressure at the end and its 150/70 and they then panic me further by insisting i have blood tests and take it easy (which im supposed to do anyway thanks to syphysis pubis dysfunction) my blood pressure has ranged from 110/70- 140/72 so i dont know whether to panic or not,
Im just so anxious about the baby now, i know the midwives only trying to reassure me by saying anytime i dont think its moved enough to come for a scan but im now even more anxious, all along this pregnancy ive been terrified of loosing this baby, bcoz thers been so many obstacles.
im sorry that was so long i just really needed to offload. xx