the waiting is driving me mad
I think I posted about this before but I need to get it off my chest as I'm brewing about it and it's making me tetchy.
In late November last year we went for pre conception counselling and risk assessment following a difficult pregnancy and Luke's subsequent health problems, to give us the information about how any new pregnancy would be managed and what the risks were of it happening again and if we decided that we go forward and add to our family. We were then referred to genetics and had an apt in the February where Luke's bloods were taken to test to see if his health problems were part of a wider syndrome.
The initial results came back in late August as an 'array anomaly' and mine and my husband's bloods were taken in September to see if there was any link. we are still waiting for our results, although I was told it wouldn't take as long to test as they would know what to look for, rather than test for everything as they had to with Luke's bloods.
We are now approaching the end of October and before we know it will be November 2013 and we will be at years anniversary from the first appointment. I'm constantly watching for the postman for a letter. I feel in such limbo. Luke is at school full time, I am a sahm with no child at home and wondering if I should go back to work. Our relationship seems to be on hold whilst this is hanging over us, it's like the elephant in the room that we can't discuss. My husband is worried about the results will mean for Luke and if a new diagnosis will have implications for his future health. I feel so alone as we've chosen not tell anyone even close family (not even my mum) in case people feel the need to offer opinions about any aspect of our decisions.
Sorry for off loading but I feel so consumed by it all.