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Devastated and need advice
Well, I haven't been on here for a while because I wanted to spend xmas relaxing and enjoying time with my hubby and family without thinking constantly about babies, ttc etc. Anyway, last week I had my laparoscopy to see if they could find a cause for our lack of baby, and the findings have knocked the wind out of my sails.
They found:
1) A cyst on my ovary (easily drained and not an issue in my mind)
2) A lot of old, brown blood in my uterus that my body isn't expelling during each af. I was told that it will most likely turn into endometriosis.
3) I have one blocked fallopian tube.
I feel absolutely devastated. I just feel like everything is against us and I have been crying on and off ever since. If it was just the blocked tube then I could cope knowing that it would probably take a while, but we would probably conceive naturally in the end. However, if my uterus is covered in old blood, then how is anything going to implant healthily in that kind of stagnant environment. Is it possible for me to still get pregnant naturally with old blood in me or have I got to accept that our only chance is IVF? Does anyone have any experience with this or got any suggections about how to improve the condition of my uterus and its lining. I spoke to my accupuncturist and she is going to do some work on cleaning it out of me but I just feel so down and I can't get out of this slump where I honestly don't believe I will ever be able to have a child, IVF or not. To make matters worse, my follow up appt isn't until the end of March. I have so many questions and no answers until then.
I hate this whole wretched experience. I thought TTC was supposed to be fun
They found:
1) A cyst on my ovary (easily drained and not an issue in my mind)
2) A lot of old, brown blood in my uterus that my body isn't expelling during each af. I was told that it will most likely turn into endometriosis.
3) I have one blocked fallopian tube.
I feel absolutely devastated. I just feel like everything is against us and I have been crying on and off ever since. If it was just the blocked tube then I could cope knowing that it would probably take a while, but we would probably conceive naturally in the end. However, if my uterus is covered in old blood, then how is anything going to implant healthily in that kind of stagnant environment. Is it possible for me to still get pregnant naturally with old blood in me or have I got to accept that our only chance is IVF? Does anyone have any experience with this or got any suggections about how to improve the condition of my uterus and its lining. I spoke to my accupuncturist and she is going to do some work on cleaning it out of me but I just feel so down and I can't get out of this slump where I honestly don't believe I will ever be able to have a child, IVF or not. To make matters worse, my follow up appt isn't until the end of March. I have so many questions and no answers until then.
I hate this whole wretched experience. I thought TTC was supposed to be fun
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Sorry to hear that the outcome of your lap wasnt as positive as you'd hoped.
I know it must feel like there is no hope right now, but the problems they found can be rectified cant they? I know its hard, but just try stay positive, easier said than done I know. I have to say it to myself everyday. Try take your mind off it by concentrating on other things and looking on the bright side of life. I have started decorating my house and have signed up to do a 100km walk in may, as my way of distracting myself from the ttc. With each month that goes on that we are unsuccessful it takes me longer to get over the disappointment. Somedays i just cant cope with it all. It just helps knowing that there are others that are going through the same thing and talking and venting really helps.
Sorry I cannot offer any real advice to you, but I didnt want to just read and run and just wanted you to know that we are here. Hope you fell better soon x
Thanks again x
Also, I'm sure they can do a D&C at a later date to clear out your uterus- probably can't do it alongside a Laparoscopy. I had that done 10 years ago when I had period problems and its like a spring clean!
I hope you manage to speak to your consultant.
T x