need some one to talk to/ advise
last year september i became pregnant and miscarried at 7 weeks i had a bit of a cry but it didnt feel like this ....i fell pregnant again in october i did have a period inbetween these dates i had an ealy scan at seven weeks as i had slight pains in my adomen n i heart beat was found an i was ecstatic thinking that was it nothing else cud pose go wrong right ... considering i have two healthy babies then of me and my partner go for my twelve week scan i was 10.6 happily drinking my water not a care in the world .. i get called in and they start my scan the lady tells the one that write things down that she needs some one else to come in here n i just looked at her n told her before she cud tell me that the heart beat had stopped my hole worl just came tumberling down ... then it was like y me why cudnt one of the other in here had this news not me i no thats terrible n now cose ive clung on to that tiny bit of hope that they hve made a mistake i am walking around with my baby still in me till i have another scan wensday its like it doesnt want to part with me overise i wud of started bleedying right i had terriuble sickness as well n its like i went thru that for nothing to go thru all this pain n then have nothing at the end of it i woke at 3 this morning cose i had dreamt it did have a heart beat it justr dioesnt want to leve my head i had a name for her to i has a feeling it was a girl .. my little bella i just dont understand why it has effected me so much worst then the other sorry for going on my partner dont do feelings ... if n e one can tell me what to excpect wud be great this was my last attempot so want be trying again to much pain for thanks for reading
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Oh Gemma, I'm so very sorry. I could have written your post myself as exactly the same happened to me when I went for a 12 week scan. I had also had an early scan at 7 weeks (due to a mc in August) and the scan showed a healthy little bean with a strong heartbeat so I was devastated when we were told that our baby had died.
I opted for a surgical procedure to remove everything, it was so close to Christmas and I wanted everything to be as normal as possible for our daughter. While I was waiting for the surgery (5 days), I also had the same dreams as you and I prayed the sonographer had been mistaken but deep down I knew it wasn't the case.
I really hope you're ok and are getting support from your partner and family, it really is a devastating time.
As for not wanting to try again, don't make any hasty decisions, you're hurting and it's natural to not want to put yourself through it again but nex time you'll probably be lucky and end up with a beautiful baby.
Big hugs honey. xxx
Reading other peoples stories would help but it seriosly does
I'm sorry that u all had to go thru it to its a horrible experience
That no women shud have to go thru .. I had hospital again
Today as I choose to take the pills after the scan had shown
Yet again that there was no heart beat so s today I had another
Two pills and four put up there the " luckerly" if I can use that
Word with in the circumstances my pains started straight away
In fact as i stood on the bus liquid fell from me wich I thought
Was blood n loads of it I started to panic cose there was so much
Wich I realised once I got in it was my waters that had gone
I didn't even realise that this would happen wish I wud have
Bin told or maybe I was just being dence n shud of realised
Myself that this was happening since then the bleeding has started
The clots n lumps are qite scary I was hopeing to see it n washed
What came out of me but didn't find n e thing that resembled a " fetus"
As the docs call it or was it fetal matter .. the pains bearable
Now that I'm laying down next to my box of Thorntons chocs
My mum has bin a diamond n took my likkle smellies foe the
Weekend I think a big bunch of flowers are in order ....
Hopefully everything will b gone on the.next scan some part
Of me will still lay there on the table thinking maybe just maybe there
More be a baby waving back at me even tho its impossible
I'm Gna try beg my doc to perform some tests to be sure
Good luck to people that have it in them to try again I just
Don't think I'm strong enuf so jel of that lady with 16 kids
Thanks for reading n sorry for goin on xx
im really sorry for your loss i no how u feel ive had 4 mc 2 of witch were missed the last one i had was 9 months ago and i still have had no luck falling pregnant my heart goes out to u all and my fingers are crossed its nice to no your not the only one sometimes xx