Stillbirth, miscarriage and TTC hell (long post)
I'm completely new to this site and I'm wondering if anyone can offer any advice. In December 2016 my firstborn (the absolute love of my life) was born sleeping at 41+2 weeks due to medical negligence, it was a horrible time for me. I laid him to rest 5 days before Christmas and by new year my partner had ran off with someone else.
In May of this year after a very close friend offered to be a donor for me (to spare me the ridiculous expense of private IVF), I discovered I was pregnant with my rainbow baby. I was shocked as I had tricked myself into believing I was useless and that I would never have a living baby, I was also shocked as I didn't think AI (artificial insemination) would work.
After a little brown spotting, my suspicions were confirmed...... At a second scan in July I was told "it wasn't good news" and at 9 weeks I began to miscarry. I opted for the natural route as I was scared of infertility due to scar tissue (which I had read was possible after medical intervention). And now.... I'm a mess!
I don't think I've had an AF since and I have no idea what's going on. The "bad news" scan was 18th July, afterwards I had about 5 weeks of brown spotting on and off. My doctor did a pregnancy test two weeks after the scan and it was negative. After the bleeding stopped I had a couple of "normal weeks" but then a week were I spotted brown again (only when I wiped and no need for a sanitary towel). My last episode of spotting was about 2 weeks ago, then over the past couple of days I've had it again but only when I wipe. I've been having lots of EWCM over the last couple of days also, so I thought I was able to begin tracking my cycle again. But it's been tinged with brown blood and last night/today, some red blood (again this is only when I wipe)
Sorry for the long post and TMI, I'm just hoping someone somewhere can offer me some advice. My friend has offered again to help me, but I'm in complete limbo until I can track my cycle. I don't sleep very well, so it's pointless temping and I was tracking my cycle using the Flo app but I can't as I'm not sure if I've had an AF.
My cycles were as regular as clockwork (28 days) after I had my little boy and now, they just seem to be nonexistent.
Anyone been through similar and have any ideas on what to do?