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Can't handle the ttc forum
ARGH! i couldn't handle the forum when i first joinded BE after my mmc but last month i popped in a bit over there and was fine but for some reason this month i can't handle it again! Someone has got a lovely ticker and then another one which says how big their bean is and what part is growing and i almost started bawling my eyes out!!! She's only about 5 weeks! and all i could think about is how everyone in there (that hasn't been in here) is so innocent and extatic and how i'm not ever going to feel that way again AARRGHHH sorry guys a total whinge i know but life is such a b*tch!!!! xx
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Seriously though, I hope you start to feel better about it soon (or better still, get your BFP and skip that forum altogether!) xxx
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I know this is normal but us ladies have very real reason to be terrified. You're not awful. After experiences like ours you know 1st hand what can and has gone wrong. Puts a totally different slant on things.
It was my 1st experience of pregnancy and has scared the living hell out of me! x x
There are some lovely ladies over there though, and mostly I find that it helps me, but visiting is bitter sweet. As Mafia said, I know that I won't be happy when I get my bfp, just scared out of my mind. Pregnancy really has lost it's shine and I don't think I will ever get it back.
A girl at work is pregnant and showed me her scan pic. I asked when due,24th may, my due date. I burst into tears. I feel a real cow as everytime I see her it's a reminder. She's v young and when she was moaning today because chocolate makes her feel sick I could have slapped her! X x
A friend of mine from my last school is due 4 weeks before I would have been. I didn't have a chance to tell her I was pregnant before I mc, and have been avoiding her like the plague since the erpc (haven't TOUCHED facebook since it happened). And she is lovely and not moany at all, so I can sympathise with you for sure!
I know what you mean about pg never being the same again. Day after my bfp I ordered 3 (!) pg books and read them all within a week, and was ready pg mags all the time. Now I feel like next time I get a bfp I'll be scared to get too excited.
I feel so at home with everyone on here - far more than I ever did on the Due in April forum (nice as they were). There is genuine compassion for each other and a level of understanding that is lovely. It's great to have somewhere where you can be honest about your feelings and know that you won't be judged, but listened to and respected.
Just thought I would add that - hope it wasn't too soppy!
Jodie xx
Hope you don't mind me gatecrashing from the ttc forum. I know people in there are full of the joys of spring but for me personally they have bought the excitement back into being pregnant for me. I lost my son Ewan, he was stillborn 8 weeks ago today, I was 27 weeks pg. I posted on the bereavment forum, no-one apart from waiting4baby (above) wanted to talk. Once me and my partner decided to try again I posted on the ttc after bereavment, again there is no-one to talk to, in my opinion it's not a great forum, i felt very lonely!! I did look into this forum and you all seemed so chatty and as though you knew each other, which is fantastic, but again i felt as though I wouldn't know what you guys had been through. So I felt the ttc forum might be the best place for me, and I have to say they have lifted my spirit so much and really given me back my PMA. There are women on there that have suffered mc's and stillbirths, albeit not many, that are positive, after all if you lose that what have you got left!!
I hope you don't mind me saying these things, it's just that they really have helped me get through my bad times.
On another note, I hope you all get your BFP's soon, I think we all deserve them xx