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What to do?
I have been with my hubby for 8 and a half years, married for 3 years and have 2 beautiful daughters aged 2 and 1 so what's my problem?
A few years before we married my hubby slept with someone behind my back but we got through it and in many ways made us stronger. I was ok after the birth of my first daughter but now a year after my second was born I feel so alone. I thought it was because we were stuck in a small flat ad that I couldn't return to work as a childminder, so I did everything I could to get out of that rut, got a job at weekends so I could still be a full time mum like I wanted and done everything I could to get a move and a month or two in my new house and I still feel so alone! I can sleep all night and still feel rough in the morning, my girls only have to cry for 5 mins and I'm tearing my hair out, This wasn't quite how I imagined. I feel ugly all th time and keep bringing up the "other woman" even though it's been 5 years without a word. The one thing I thought i was great at I now feel so crap at. My hubby thinks I'm going off him, then I worry he might go elsewhere, I'm too tired to do anything with my girls and the more I cry the more tired I feel. I've also started hitting myself, like biting my arm or slapping myself just to see if I can snap myself out of it. The thing is now my daughter has started hitting herself when she gets angry. I know I should feel really happy and when I'm out and about I'm fine it's just when I'm indoors I feel like the walls are closing in. I just don't know what to do?
A few years before we married my hubby slept with someone behind my back but we got through it and in many ways made us stronger. I was ok after the birth of my first daughter but now a year after my second was born I feel so alone. I thought it was because we were stuck in a small flat ad that I couldn't return to work as a childminder, so I did everything I could to get out of that rut, got a job at weekends so I could still be a full time mum like I wanted and done everything I could to get a move and a month or two in my new house and I still feel so alone! I can sleep all night and still feel rough in the morning, my girls only have to cry for 5 mins and I'm tearing my hair out, This wasn't quite how I imagined. I feel ugly all th time and keep bringing up the "other woman" even though it's been 5 years without a word. The one thing I thought i was great at I now feel so crap at. My hubby thinks I'm going off him, then I worry he might go elsewhere, I'm too tired to do anything with my girls and the more I cry the more tired I feel. I've also started hitting myself, like biting my arm or slapping myself just to see if I can snap myself out of it. The thing is now my daughter has started hitting herself when she gets angry. I know I should feel really happy and when I'm out and about I'm fine it's just when I'm indoors I feel like the walls are closing in. I just don't know what to do?
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