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sorry its a rambling post... just need to write things down
Not sure if this is the right place to put this but thought here might be the best.
My lo is 8 wks old on wednesday, and he means the world to me. but i find myself feeling so crap, I cry most days. I constantly worry i'm hurting him (not on purpose- just niot picking him up right ect) I dont think my little boy likes me very much, and i worry he'll never love me. I feel i need him more than he needs me
I feel totally useless with him, and the things i do for him (feed, change, bath etc) any tom,, dick or harry could do for him. When he cries i feel like its because its something i"ve done wrong.
I'm jealous of my oh as our son likes him more, settles for him better, smiles for him more ect. I know its really bad and selfish of me but i want my boy to need me more than he needs him. I sat crying my eyes out on thursday when my lo was laughing at his daddy, all i kept wondering was why couldn't I make lo happy.
I think lo would be better off without me sometimes, i dont think i offer him much in life. My oh has stopped me leaving once already. I felt so guilty afterwards. I know these feelings aren't right but i just dont know what to do. On thursday i could barely look at my lo, thank god oh was home to help me look after him as all i did was cry.
I feel like everyone is having a go at how i try to bring my lo up, ppl are forever giving me advice which makes me doubt what i do. when my pil came over friday, i mentioned how often i feed lo.... mil was straight in with a dig about how he should be gonig longer between feeds, how he should be sleeping through now ect.
I feel so bad, when lo cried when on mils knee i made oh get him to settle him, as i was worried i wouldn't be able to settle him. My in laws make it quite clear that they think i wont be able to bring our son up right- they've said they'll get involved with his disapline (sp) if we dont do it right.
I'm sorry if i'm rambling on and it doesn't make sense but i'm so confussed about how i feel, one minute i'm fine, the next i;m crying my eyes out. i think i dont have any mothering instincts- like i dont know why lo cries sometimes, and i dont know how to settle him
I'm frightened to go to the Dr or speak to my hv (even though she is lovely) as i'm worried they'll take my baby away from me.
I wish i could just start again, right from when my first contractions started, so i could do a better job of bring my boy into the world.
My lo is 8 wks old on wednesday, and he means the world to me. but i find myself feeling so crap, I cry most days. I constantly worry i'm hurting him (not on purpose- just niot picking him up right ect) I dont think my little boy likes me very much, and i worry he'll never love me. I feel i need him more than he needs me
I feel totally useless with him, and the things i do for him (feed, change, bath etc) any tom,, dick or harry could do for him. When he cries i feel like its because its something i"ve done wrong.
I'm jealous of my oh as our son likes him more, settles for him better, smiles for him more ect. I know its really bad and selfish of me but i want my boy to need me more than he needs him. I sat crying my eyes out on thursday when my lo was laughing at his daddy, all i kept wondering was why couldn't I make lo happy.
I think lo would be better off without me sometimes, i dont think i offer him much in life. My oh has stopped me leaving once already. I felt so guilty afterwards. I know these feelings aren't right but i just dont know what to do. On thursday i could barely look at my lo, thank god oh was home to help me look after him as all i did was cry.
I feel like everyone is having a go at how i try to bring my lo up, ppl are forever giving me advice which makes me doubt what i do. when my pil came over friday, i mentioned how often i feed lo.... mil was straight in with a dig about how he should be gonig longer between feeds, how he should be sleeping through now ect.
I feel so bad, when lo cried when on mils knee i made oh get him to settle him, as i was worried i wouldn't be able to settle him. My in laws make it quite clear that they think i wont be able to bring our son up right- they've said they'll get involved with his disapline (sp) if we dont do it right.
I'm sorry if i'm rambling on and it doesn't make sense but i'm so confussed about how i feel, one minute i'm fine, the next i;m crying my eyes out. i think i dont have any mothering instincts- like i dont know why lo cries sometimes, and i dont know how to settle him
I'm frightened to go to the Dr or speak to my hv (even though she is lovely) as i'm worried they'll take my baby away from me.
I wish i could just start again, right from when my first contractions started, so i could do a better job of bring my boy into the world.
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OH has told me i need to spk to my hv, or he will do it for me. I had a terrible night last night. The problem is i'm swinging from feeling fab to feeling rubbish- its so unpredictable.
When i feel fine, i think what was i being silly for, but when i feel rubbish i;m falling to pieces, and a part of me wants to give up.
Last night i asked OH to leave me and take lo with him. as i said they'd be better off without me. I know this is stupid, but thats just how i feel when i have my down moments. i just hope today is a good day
One reason that you lo may not always settle with you is that they are quite good at sensing how you feel. I often find that when im happy i get lots of smiles from my lo and if i am stressed she will cry.
Please,please go for some help.....its great that you have talked to your oh about it, you will need him to be really strong to support you at the moment.
I really hope that you start to feel better soon......you've made the first step you have noticed and admitted that things are not quite right.
Take care
Take care
Holly