Work after mat leave...
I was told today that a colleague of mine has received a 12% pay rise and 5k stay bonus if they stay until I'm back. The two of us work very closely and I'm very happy for his pay rise as he's been unhappy about his pay for ages. The 12% now brings him up to my salary - yes it would be lovely to be granted a pay rise, especially as Ive continued throughout my pregnancy to work 45+ hour weeks and have excelled in my annual appraisal and have received a pay rise every single year ranging between 3-10% I get that I'm not getting one as I'm going on maternity leave so there's no incentive for them to try to keep me as I'm stuck there to get my mat pay. its pissed me off though, don't get me wrong, I've been promised this pay rise since august last year!
Whats annoyed me is today in an off the cuff conversation about the dept my manager essentially said he's restructuring it down to a 4 person team (we're currently a 5). He then listed everyone else in the dept except me and the new direction he sees them heading in. Obviously pre judging my next question being along the lines of wtf he said "and of course when you're done playing mum we'll try and find something for you'. I'm 25, my whole career has been at this place, I've been there 7 years and worked my way up, and I feel like today I just lost everything because I'm pregnant. Everything is legal, there's nothing I can do but I'm heartbroken and don't feel like I can talk to anyone. The person I'm closest to at work is the guy that got the pay rise and I don't want him to feel guilty, he's done nothing wrong, I'm just pissed off at the company after all this time.
sorry, I just need a moan and a cry. and my iron levels are low so H has made me a plate of green veg for dinner so not even a nice meal to cheer me up :'(