Feeling sad and alone

I'm 32 weeks pregnant with my first baby and recently I have been feeling really alone. I am married and my relationship with my husband has changed a lot. 

He used to be really affectionate and touch me and kiss me a lot. Recently, I feel like I try so hard to be close to him and he's just not interested.  I know I have gained weight during the pregnancy and he's told me before it's an issue (he said I need to consider how the way I looks makes him feel). I am worried he is going off me. I try not to eat too much to stop gaining weight but I don't want to hurt the baby and I think this is just the way I carry a child. I know every woman is different and some ladies hardly show at all but I seem to be all bump! Also, my legs and feet swell a lot due to pregnancy which is making me look bigger than I am. 

I have tried to talk to my husband about this but whenever he feels like I am in the slightest way criticising him he gets defensive and tries to blame me. He says that he knows I touch him a lot and kiss him a lot but that I don't  have healing or comforting hands so that when I touch him it doesn't feel good for him. He says the reason he doesn't kiss me or touch me anymore is because when I touch him it doesn't feel good. He says I don't massage him properly or scratch his back properly but I do try, I guess I'm just not good at it. Last night and this morning I was quite weepy because I'm feeling so down, when I tried to explain it to him he countered with the fact thay yesterday he had to go to his mother's house to get her to massage his shoulders because I don't do it properly so he knows how I feel... Throughout this whole pregnancy he has never once rubbed my shoulders or done anything like that so I really don't know how he can say he knows how I feel. At least I try to massage or comfort him!!

I am still working full-time and yet I do all the housework and laundry. I can't remember the last time he even made the bed (I come home at lunch to do it because I leave when he is still in bed in the mornings). I hear other women talk about how their husbands did everything when they were pregnant and it's just not like that at all for me. If I complain about something (sore joints, sore back, sore stomach, heartburn etc.) then he just replies that he suffers from the same thing all the time. I just want someone to care for me, even just for one day.  I feel like I am going through this whole process alone.  My husband already has a child from a previous relationship so he's really not as excited as me.  He hasn't helped buy anything for the baby anything for the baby or nursery, I try to get him involved but he's completely indifferent.  We don't even have a crib yet because he never wants to go shopping for one and I can't do it alone because it's too heavy for me to carry. 

I am under so much stress with this pregnancy.  I earn a lot more than my husband so I feel like I'm solely financially responsible for the house and bills and I plan on giving up work for a little bit after the baby is so I am trying to save a lot now so we can afford to go to one income for a while. I am currently trying to refinance house which is a lot of paperwork and effort and I can't even get him to read an email from our mortgage advisor.  I just need some help with things or at the very least someone to talk to. I don't have many friends anymore as my husband doesn't really like me going out without him.

I have just been getting really down recently with everything.  I'm not having a great pregnancy health wise and on top of that I am still working, doing 100% of house work and being responsible both financially and physically for managing the household (bills, mortgage etc.) My body is exhausted and I have no emotional support anymore because my husband is not interested. I sometimes think it would be easier if I was alone because then I'd only have to clean up after myself and be financially responsible for myself instead of him as well. I do love him a lot but I feel so rejected and under appreciated that I'm not sure it's a healthy love. 

Sorry for massive rant, I just need to get it all out. If I tried to say half the things I just said to him, he'd completely lose it!