I feel funny putting this in this section considering what some of you are going through. well my feelings are all over the place at the moment. Mr C and i have been ttc for 9 months now to no avail (we are both almost 35). i have always had period problems and had 3 laparoscopy's to find out the different problems. anyway in 2005 i got really sick and ended up in hospital a few times, had serious infection in my womb which took over a year to get under control, then abnormal smear and still suffering badly with pain and cysts. anyway, Mr C has submitted a 'sample' to the hospital and we are waiting the test results, but last night he got quite upset worried he may be letting me down if he is infertile (we dont know the results yet). i have tried to reassure him we will get through whatever happens together and he seemed better this morning, but now i am thinking if his results come back fine then it must be me. not of course that i want him to have anyhting wrong, but head is now so messed up, cant stop thiniking about it. i feel awful for thinking this way. I am having tests week after next when i see my consultant, so got to wait even longer for results, and to top it off i have to have my 6monthly smear to make sure no more cancerous cells have come back. sorry to go on, i know some of you are going through so much and this seems so small in comparision.