missed miscarriage and how cruel it is!

ON FRIDAY I WAS ADMIITED ONTO THE SURGICAL WARD AT GLASGOW ROYAL INFIRMARY FOR AN EXTRACTION OP DUE TO THE SCAN REVEALING THAT I HAD HAD A MISSED MISCARRIAGE. I AM TRYING TO FIND THE POSITIVES IN THAT I DO HAVE TWO HEALTHY TEENAGERS, BUT THIS WAS AN UNEXPECTED SURPRISE AND AS FAR AS I HAD CALCULATED WAS WELL INTO MY FOURTH MONTH OF PREGNANCY. I ALSO FEEL SUCH A FOOL FOR TELLING EVERYONE HOW EXCELLENTLY HEALTHY I WAS, HAD STOPPED DRINKING AND SMOKING, WAS EATING FIVE A DAY. MY BUMP WAS GROWING, MY BREASTS WERE HUGE, I WAS REVELLING IN THE EXCITMENT OF IT ALL WITH MY BELOVED PARTNER (THIS WAS HIS FIRST BABY). I JUST FEEL THAT NATURE HAS DEALT ME A CRUEL BLOW - MY BODY BLOOMING WHEN MY BABY WAS DEAD AT EIGHT WEEKS. I DON'T WANT TO FORGET MY LITTLE "MAISIE" AND IT IS HARD.