Today is my last day at work!

Hey girls,

Today is my last day at work - I was covering a six month contract for maternity funny enough (after trying to conceive for ages) and I fell pregnant almost immediately!! I am 23 weeks (tom) and showing really heavily so unlikely that I'd be able to find gainful employment for all of just a couple of months!

Feeling a little (okay a lot) anxious about loosing my financial independents as I have ALWAYS worked! However to count my blessing I have a partner whom earns a good wage and has been fantastic in supporting me - so suppose it's to do with loss of role/ title and people making assumptions about you -not working'.

I am working really hard on saying -I'm preparing to be a mother' in a positive tone or coming up with a similar title or come back for when people ask me! (Any ideas girls?) I do know myself that what is happening and about to happen is a wonderful experience - but it just feels so under valued socially, perhaps it's a little bit of an ego dent because I have worked really hard to get the status carer wise, (I hope that doesn't sound arrogant because it's not meant so - just hoping people might be able to identify and give me some comfort that I'm not alone!) ?

I had been in my last job 3 years so if I had of stayed on (i wasn't pregnant when i moved and felt it was time - couldn't hang on - just encase after trying for 2 and a half years) :roll: I would have had a job to return to - however now (although I have never ever had a problem finding work) I feel like I'm going to be out of work indefinitely. Which does really worry me! ?

Although on a far more positive note I have the entire summer off! I can really relax before our first child comes - that my OH is very positive that I AM working a fulltime job (he reassures me) it's just not in the typical sense of bringing home a wage. That I as a person choose experience over material goods - so would travel before buying some new flash telly ect.. So this is what was meant for me.. perhaps if i hadn't changed jobs i might not of even got pregnant, Also my current situation gives me the opportunity to enjoy this pregnancy in its entirety and that I am now lucky to be able to have after noon naps on my bodies demand! And most importantly that I can have time with my child and in steal love, confidence, self worth, high self esteem, values, and not miss the important bits - my little one being tiny, learning to walk and talk, first laugh and all the beautiful memories and funny things they say! ;\) xxx