Im new here and i guess i was just looking for somewhere to put down in words what im going through and find people who are in the same situation.
Im currently going through my 2nd miscarriage. I'll tell you about my first to start with...
It happened in August last year. I was 7 weeks and 2 days pregnant when i started to spot. I went to the hospital the next day and had an emergency scan. We saw the heartbeat but they said i was only 6 weeks and 1 day gone... i knew this wasnt right. That weekend i attended a family wedding and was still bleeding and had started to cramp. On the monday the cramps got worse and i "passed" the baby at home. After 3 years on TTC i was devistated as you can imagine
It took us about another 6 months to conceive again. This time we used the clearblue fertility monitor and got pregant the first cycle using it. The pregancy seemed to be going well, i was having all the "normal" symptoms... sore breasts, going off certain foods etc and once i had passed the 8 week mark i started to relax a little and enjoy being pregnant. Then at 10 weeks and 1 day i started to spot again, i knew instantly that this was it... it was over. I went for a scan the next day and was told that there gestation sack was there but there was no heartbeat... my baby had stopped developting 5 weeks before. 5 weeks!! How could i not know??
Like i said i just wanted to get down in writing what was happening, im finding it really hard to talk about and i feel so numb. The first day after i knew the baby was gone i cried so much but now... now i just feel like its not really happening, like its not real. I want to wake up from this nighmare and still be pregnant. My 12 week scan should have been happening next friday and i really dont know how im going to cope with getting through the day never mind the next few weeks / months.
im going back to work tomorrow, im not sure if im ready but how long am i supposed to just sit around thinking about what has happened..?
Sorry to go on and thanks for reading (if you've got this far and not given up reading such a long post)
I would like to know how other people are coping?