i think it is over for me :-(
Hello lovely ladies.
As a few of you may know I have been spotting on and off since last Wednesday/Thursday and have had the of cramping type pains. I went to the doctor this morning as I was worried (i didn't wanna go this early a I am only 6+5 today so wanted to avoid the early scans where all there was was a sac and then I'm asked to come back in a fortnight to see if there is a bean in there an worrying myself.senseless for 14 days if that makes sense.) Doc got me an appointment for tomorrow morning for an early scan but today the pain has gradually gotten worse and is now REALLY intense I have ha two co-codamol (30/500mg) and they aren't touching it. The bleeding is bright red now and I am expecting it to get a lot worse. I so STUPIDLY did a cbd with conception indicators this afternoon and got pregnant 3+ (on the 11th of Feb I got pregnant 2-3) so I had hope it was such a nice feeling. Then the pain started bad an now I just feel gutted. I will have the scan in th morning which, if it hasn't come away by morning, will only show a sac and yolk sac as I am only 6+5 by lmp I actually conceived four to five weeks ago at most. Then I will be sent away to come back in a fortnight for another scan (i don't think there will be a bean by then they may say if th pain or bleeding get bad to go down to a and e. Sorry for sounding so nasty I just KNOW what is to come and I am surprised at how BADLY I am taking this. Maybe it is because I know, regardless of the outcome, this is and will be my last pregnancy. I just feel unable to do this and that is Soooo not me, I'm peeved at myself for being so bloody weak but It just is button me hard. Sorry to moan ladies and be in you down I just need to vent. xxxxx