I miscarried at 8 weeks on 17/09/19. My bleeding stopped yesterday 25/09/19 with the help of cytotec ‘abortion’ medication. I feel empty and angry. I hate everything. My doctor told me to not get pregnant for three months after my miscarriage. That feels like cruel torture. I feel like a new pregnancy would fill the hole that’s left behind. But hubby of course agrees with doctor. I don’t think I’ve ever felt angrier than I do now. I’m so angry all the time. I want to smash anything and everything but I can’t because that’s inappropriate behaviour. I don’t know how to get my anger out so I just suck it in. It’s lonely when no one at work knows I miscarried just over a week ago. I keep having pictures pop into my head of the night I miscarried. Looking at ‘it’ as it was happening. I just hate everything. We were supposed to have a baby. In May. It was our first and it was suppose to be perfect. I don’t know why this happened and I hate that I can’t talk to anyone about it because it’s a big secret. Hubby doesn’t want anyone but close close close family to know.